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Saturday, January 31, 2009

Hay, tinatamad na naman akong mag-English. Hahaha!

Grabe! Sobrang aminan ang nangyari kagabi sa aming tatlong Prinsesa aka Prinsesa Muppet(Laery), Prinsesa Pedo(Era) at yours truly, Prinsesa Yuri. Pero samen na lang yun. Basta. Meron pa pala kameng sinisikreto sa isa't isa kahit sobrang tagal na naming magkakakilala! Hahaha! Pero yun naman kasi ang mga bagay na di basta basta nailalabas. Hahaha! Basta!

Anyway, ayun. Tumambay na naman kame kagabi sa Tore ni Little Miss Muppet at kwentuhan uli ng mga buhay buhay. Di na pede ilabas dahil lahat ng napagusapan ay naiiwan sa tore niya at kweba ko.

Ang dami ko pa talagang gustong itype kaso pinapagalitan na ako. Nakakainis!

Baboosh na. Tsk tsk.

^__^

Edit post: Di ko pala 'to napublish! TANGA! Hahaha!

Halo-Halo

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Dahil sa pagbabasa ko ng blog ni Little Miss Muppet aka my T.F. Laery Rose Villegas, tinamad na muna akong mag-english sa blog kong ito.

As usual, ang dami na namang nangyayaring nakakadrain ng energy sa buhay ko. *medyo nafifil na parang nagagaya niya ang style ni Lae* WAHH! Yan ang nangyayari kapag binasa mo ang blog ni Lae!

Anyway, nagpacheck up ako ngayon at naipakita ko ang aking "most sacred jungle" sa doctor na nagexamine saken. Syempre awkward at attentive ako nong umpisa kasi naman, magpapakita ako ng chorvah ko sa isang taong kakakilala ko lang at lalake pa. Pero medyo inexpect ko na yun eh kaya nga naghugas at nagpalit ako ng pangloob ko para dun. Phew! Buti na lang naisip ko yun. Pati si Mudrax napaurong nong sinabi ni Doc yun. Haha! Pero ok lang naman pagkatapos. Syempre, wala lang kay Doc yun. Business is business. Ayun nga. Allergy daw yun at kelangan lang pahidan ng ointment. Pag hindi nawala after a week, babalik na lang sa kanya para tignan uli.

About naman sa pagiging mahihiluhin ko at parang nasusuka pero hindi nasusukang feeling or nausea, pinatignan ang dugo ko dahil baka anemia na yun. Thankfully, wala naman daw problema. Pero nagpasingit si Doc ng, "Papunta siya siguro sa state of Vertigo. Balik na lang po kayo kung talagang sobra na ang hilo.."

Vertigo?! Ano kaya yun? Napaisip ako kanina at balak isearch sa web kung ano yun pero nakalimutan ko agad dahil nakachat ko na naman ang cute kong asawa from Japan. Hihihi! Ngayon ko lang uli naalala. At sinearch ko siya at eto ang aking nabasa..

"Vertigo (from the Latin vertigin-, vertigo, "dizziness," originally "a whirling or spinning movement," from vertere "to turn") is a specific type of dizziness, a major symptom of a balance disorder. It is the sensation of spinning or swaying while the body is actually stationary with respect to the surroundings.


The effects of vertigo may be slight. It can cause nausea and vomiting and, in severe cases, it may give rise to difficulties with standing and walking."

Fresh from wikipedia pa yan. Hahaha! Napakunot ang ulo ko nong umpisa pero naisip ko na sana naman di ganon talaga kaseryoso ang nangyayari ngayon sa katawan ko. Tsk tsk. Di naman ako nalungkot or nanghina kasi naman eh, parang feeling ko imposible naman yun mangyari saken! Hahaha!

Well, that's it sa check up ko. Hakhak!

Anyway, tsaka ko na ikwekwento napakaraming other happenings sa biglang naging sobrang makulay na buhay ko! Nakakabaliw! Pero I'm kind of enjoying it! Hahaha!

^__^

At last!

Friday, January 23, 2009

At last, I know now how to keep my mind at ease! It's talking directly with the person, who is making you feel confuse and lost and sad, about how you feel!

Approved and Tested!

Whew! It's a good thing I got the courage to talk to NC about what's been happening to me lately. Or damn, I would have gone home tonight feeling more depress than ever. Hearing NC say that there's really no hope, since nag-aadjust rin siya para sa sarili niya at di siya handa sa ganon uli, actually made me feel good. It's a nice feeling to be able to have a heart-to-heart talk kasama siya.

I know this is not NC's fault even from the start. NC's a good person at na-carried away lang siya sa maraming bagay at ngayon, ginagawa niya ang lahat to make life better. Hayaan ko na lang siya kung ano gusto niya gawin sa buhay niya at subukan tulungan siya. As a friend of course.

As for me, it seems I've been pretty irrational and grumpy and hotheaded. A bunch of negative emotions came out of me for the past months. At madami sa kaibigan ko ang naging outlet. *sigh* And I know I did many things that's hurtful and annoying. Narerealize ko naman yun eh pero I'm too caught up in my own problems to do something about it. Let say, I was blinded by hurt. Kaya..

I'm SORRY. Era. Nelia. CM. Nanay Pheebz.

I'm still human and I have my faults. Kaya please forgive me na lang uli. Kahit paulit ulit na, forgive me pa rin. Hehe. Pasensya na talaga.

Cge. Yun na lang muna. Antok na ko!

Goodnight!

^__^

..................... (translated)

"How long? It's hopeless already. But why?!.. I guess everyone can be miserable and weak. Everyone can feel like they're alone. I love you. I still love you. I love you but now it's over.

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Here you go CM! And the rest na di naintindihan ang post ko! Haha! Translated version!

^__^

Ang BUTAW!

Do my resolve always have to crumble whenever I see that person?!

Taena naman! *CM! Sayo ko natutunan yan! Hahaha!*

Due to public demand, magtutuloy tuloy pa rin ang ka-emohan ko dahil may mga taong naeentertain! Hahaha! *Tamaan ka ng panang malupet CM!*

*sigh*

Bigyan ko siya ng nickname: NC

Why do I have to text NC out of nowhere?! I shouldn't have in the first place! Nadepress lang tuloy ako kagabi! PESTE! Sa susunod, di na ko magtetext hanggat di pa ko nakakamove on.

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Ako: Ingatz na lang palague.,

NC: Ha?

Ako: Basta! Ingatz lang palague., mahirap na., baka maaksidente., meron kasing kakilala na naaksidente at napaisip at ikaw naalala., oh men! haha., napakadali mawalan ng buhay kaya ingatz ay ingatz., ok?

NC: Ganun? adik, kung mamamatay ka, mamamatay ka talaga.,

Ako: Tsk. Walang effort. If that's that, that's that. Cge na. Yun na yun.
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It seems I'm on a circle again. I need a scissor to cut that and for it to be straight again. Kala niyo naman lumong lumo pa rin ako? Di na masyado no! Hahaha! Ayus na ako. Finifeel ko lang ang state of pain and depression na dulot ng unrequited love.

QUOTATION from my friends.

JohnPaul: "I've wasted half of my life for her!"

Cm: "I've wasted 5years of my life for him and still ongoing!"

Peace tayo boy! I don't plan to waste my time again. At Nelia Ganda, hindi ako mahilig magpalit! Ganon lang talaga ang buhay. Kasi kayo, nagiging succesful yung sa inyo kaya tumatagal eh samen, lagi na lang one-sided kaya kelangan mag-move on! Di ba CM?! ERA?!

Hahaha!

^__^

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Thursday, January 22, 2009



"Dono kurai kakaru no? 'Mou oshimai da' already. Demo nande?!.. Minna mijime de yowai no kana. Minna onaji dake kodoku de. Suki nan yo. Mada suki nan yo. Suki yakedo mou owari ya nen."

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Hotel 626

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Wahh! Di ko na naman nalaro ng maayos! Nagloko na naman firefox! Peste!

ULET na naman bukas! Bagal pa magload! OH MEN!

To anyone who wants a good scare, try playing this game. It's fun! And SCARY!

Hotel 626: A SNACK STRONG Production - See you in the morning!

Hahaha!

^__^

Funny

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It's sad how some things, no matter how foolish and simple it is to some, could hurt so much.


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Status: feeling empty
Currently listening to: Mobile - Avril Lavigne

"It's time now to turn around, turn my back on everything.."

First Love

Monday, January 19, 2009

"Di man tayo ang nagkatuluyan, ikaw pa rin ang first love ko."

The first time I heard it, I cried. The second time, guess what? I smiled.

I really did love you and I still do but clinging to this fact would only hurt me so this is it. It's time to move on. I'm giving this up not because I didn't love you enough. I'm giving this up because this is not what you want.

I’ve never understood the reasoning behind someone ‘moving on’. It’s not like you’re really going to ‘move on’. You’re just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that person every second of every minute of every day until it finally becomes a routine and you don’t notice it anymore.

Let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things aren’t like before, for surely there is someone out there who will love you even more.

So, sa mga nagmomove on dian(kasama ako sa sinasabihan! haha!), wag pagewang gewang ang resolve dahil wala kayong patutunguhan. Kelangan buo ang loob niyo! Don't think about the "what if's". If you really want to move on, stop hoping. There are just some things you need to give up. Surely, someone better will come.

Gawin lang 'to ng gawin hanggang tumatak sa kukote ko! Hahaha!

Ang sarap maging emo sa blog! Yehey!

^__^

Life's Challenges

I wished for it and BAM! It came.

I thought that life was boring. Nothing to think about. It was so uneventful it's a little frustrating. Then I wished for life to be more interesting and damn! It came true and it was one heck of a ride! An experience I won't forget. Masyado akong nasubok ng mga nangyari!

Pero what's good about it is I manage to realize a bunch of things. Things I'm sure I won't know with my simple way of life before. Always happy. No big challenges to test me. It was a secured place I unknowingly built for myself because of the things in my past. I didn't know I was running away.

Then I opened the door, and left that place. I was paralyzed for the second time in my life. The second time I thought of just dying. I was so fragile. I was lost. I was scared. And I found out, that I really didn't know myself.

Di ko talaga alam na ganon kasi I'm always happy doing the stuff na makakapagpasaya sa akin. I always take the easy way. Pero napagtanto ko na I won't grow as a person if I keep doing that.

But now..

I feel I became much stronger than before. I was so thankful to have experienced it now than to have it later. This was really something. Another experience on my "box of life".

Next time, I won't be beaten. I won't run away. I'll face it with my head held high!

"Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you,
they're supposed to help you discover who you are."


^__^

I'm OVER you!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Haha! Gusto ko lang magpakabitter since nabasa ko somewhere na being bitter helps when you're depress.

So here it is.

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I won't waste my time anymore
I loved you
You don't love me the same way
It's over
I'm through

You broke my heart
Tore it apart
You made me cry
Made me wanna die
You made me sad
I was hurting so bad

I would only give you grief
We're only hurting each other
All this because of what I feel
And the same goes for you
You're not for me as I am for you

You made me selfish
I have to admit
You brought the worst out of me
We didn't clicked
I quit!

I feel so hard
It's time to climb back
I'm here if you need me
But I'm done chasing after you
I'm done wasting all my time
On someone who doesn't care

You're right!
It's time to think for myself
I won't care anymore
You don't deserve me
I don't deserve you
But we're still friends
That won't change

I'm thankful in a way
That I feel in love for the first time
That I experienced all of this
That I realized and learned
That not everything is easy
I'm sure I learned my lesson

I won't say I promise
Because I don't like that word
So instead, this is what I have to say
I'll do my best!
So I won't make the same mistakes again
But this is it.

I'm OVER you!

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Haha! Drama QUEEN! This is my way of moving on. I need to be positive for myself. If I care again, I would only fall in love all over again and the circle will go on.

Think for myself!

The best way is a straight line. And that's my goal!

Haha! Yes! Tama ang binasa ko! Gumaan pakiramdam ko!

^__^

Edit: At para sa mga kala ay di ko 'to ginawa, ako gumawa niyan! Yan ang kinalabasan ng kabitteran ko! Ayus ba?! Kala ni CM-sama kanta. Kala naman ni Nellie, poem. Eh, adlib lang yan at kung anong kabitteran nafifeel ko, type lang ako ng type. Hahaha!

Regret

Saturday, January 17, 2009

It was regret all along..

TAE!

Oh men! Haha! Sige na nga Master CM! I-aanime ko na lang 'to!

^__^

Moving on

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I wonder how long I'm going to be like this?

My friends are right. I'm being too emotional. Maybe because it's my first time feeling this way. I don't know yet how to get over. I don't know yet how to cope up. This are new feelings that needs new solutions I still don't know. It's stupid. It's sad. It's so depressing. No matter how many times you all say, "Ok naman ah..", sa akin, it's not like that.

It doesn't always happen, mind you. There's just some moments when I have the chance to think about it then it always ends up with me crying. I really do think I'm being stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid one million times. *laughs*

It's true that it's a natural feeling, but it's not suppose to be forever. I know I need to move on.

Right now, I'm doing my best to do that. So to all my friends who are reading this, please bear with me!

The thing that really worries me is that this is all happening in one of the most important part of my life that will -what's that word?- dictate? I think. Basta! For my future. WAHH! Ang pag-aaral ko! Huhu! Kelangan matapos 'to ng linggo na 'to! Asa boy! Haha!

Teka! Kung ano ano na nasusulat ko! Haha! May pasok pa! Lagot ako kay Era! Di pa ko naliligo! Hahaha!

Bye na!

^__^

Ang LAMEG!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

saket sa ulo ng weather na to!

sobrang lameg!

gusto ko nang heater!

papa! bumili ka na! gusto mo rin naman eh! *tingin sa likod at nakita ang tatay na binabasa ang tinatype ko*

papa: heater ka dian., kala mo naman ang mura non.,

ako: alam ko., lameg kasi eh! nakakasira ng tulog! super takep na nga rin ako ng katawan! nakamedyas, nakagloves, nakajacket, nakajogging pants, nakakumot! waepek pa rin!

papa: wag na kasi kayo magbintilador.,

ako: ayaw ni ate! malamok daw!

papa: eh di magkulambo.,

ako: asan ang kulambo?

papa: wala., magdusa ka.,

Huhu! T-T

Anxiety? Or am I just sick?

What the heck is this?! This feelings every waking morning. This feelings where your head hurts and you want to get sick but can't 'coz you haven't eaten anything. I wish it would just go away because it's driving me crazy!

New Year 2009 - The sighing post

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

It's 2009 and it seems nothing has changed with the way I handle my studies.

*sigh*

Every year, I have this new year resolution that I will study much harder so that I will become a genius and be able to understand everything my professors throws at me. But with me being the lazy-type, it's actually hopeless.

*sigh*

All the exams that I took this year so far are all bad! It's so frustrating when you know the answers but didn't manage to write it because you're too slow and you're still not finish when it's time to pass it. Argh! Ang kupad ko kasi! PESTE! T-T And another when you're jutting it down on your scratch then your professor surprised you that you need to pass it ASAP?! Then you don't have the time to write it on your paper so you will have to pass whatever you manage to transfer?! Oh men! What an unlucky year I'm having!

*sigh*

But despite all this, I have no plan on giving up! Surely, babawi ako sa sususnod! Be ready midterms and finals! You will feel my wrath! Mwahahaha!

*sigh*

I'm sleeping. Goodnight! Hahaha!

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